Some of the prayers I had before –
How I would love to feel and see your presence more clearly! I will wait upon your perfect timing, even though I can be a bit impatient! I will keep telling myself to be patient and I won’t beat myself too much for being impatient.
I understand that I must be ready for anything that comes, whether if it’s blessings or trials. I am willing to give and sacrifice for you even though my flesh may not agree with it. I only ask for your strength and courage to stand for what’s to come. (I thought of possible future persecution and whether if I am willing to stand for Christ even there is a possibility of being mocked, ridiculed, or physically hurt).
I ask for you to clean my heart inside out. Completely! What if I am seeking You with some ulterior motive? As in seeking You for the sake of receiving your blessings? What if there’s something hidden within me that I’m not aware of or have overlooked? Something in subconscious that I should repent of? If so then I repent of whatever is not clean within me.
Nevertheless, I will lean on your promises, your unwavering words! I know you can clean my heart and give me a new heart. I can feel You working through my heart, just as potter molds his clays into perfection. O Father, You know me better than I know myself. I don’t want to hurt your feeling but instead I want to give you my LOVE. I ask to be able to LOVE you as you have LOVED me.
Just some of my short prayers scattered throughout regular day (might not be the exact words or as refined as I’ve written them but the general concept is still the same)
– Thank you for the fresh bagel, they smell wonderful! It’s delightful.
– Thank you for being with me
– Thank you for a beautiful day
– Look at that beautiful tree, Your designs are delightful to behold!
– Thank you for giving me food and drink and I ask for You to bless my meal.
– I will never leave you no matter what happen.
– How I love your handiworks! Look at all those birds fluttering about, swaying green grasses, and the smell of fresh air!
– What an amazing universe you have created!
– Let’s go on an adventure! (going to a local park).
– Thank you for going on an adventure with me.
– (Just sitting and silently thinking of you, imagining myself sitting alongside with you and enjoying your presence)
O loving Father,
I thirst for you.
To be embraced by your loving embrace,
To fall into your bosom.
I would love to see you,
And to actually embrace you!
I’m a visual person and I like to see things for myself. I long to actually see God and I know this will happen one day, whether if he will allow it on the earth or when I go to heaven. I’m excited about this prospect. Now I’m wondering like a child – What does God look like? What does He smell like? What does He sound like? What does He feel like?
I already love what He has created for us – Galaxies, creatures, birds, earth, stars, etc..! I feel like those are a reflection of His BEAUTY, and His beautiful HANDIWORKS, and most importantly, I love His everlasting and overflowing LOVE.
Peering into myself
I see many things broken.
It’s quite painful and ugly to look at,
I see a bit of shame here,
And a bit of anxiety there,
A bit of self-condemnation here,
And a bit judgmental thinking there.
Ahh! What can I do?
O loving Father,
O loving Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit,
I thank you for the sacrifice of Jesus Christ,
Whose blood of the Lamb has washed away my sin!
Even when I did not deserve anything,
But in your infinite love and compassion,
You have rescued me and placed me on a secure rock.
I will hold you to your promise to fix me
Yes God, I am willing give away my broken and sinful nature,
so I can become a new creation in CHRIST!
Please come O loving God
Come and fix me.
If you have slipped, a thought may come to you saying, “Ahh see now you’ve screwed up. You might as well keep on sinning.” That’s a trap. Don’t wallow in self-pity or self-condemnation. Now, pick yourselves back up and keep on going. Repent and ask God to forgive you. Also ask God to give you a renewed strength to avoid slipping again.
Or another thought might come to you saying, “Ahh you’ve screwed up. Now you need to do good deeds to make up for what you did.” That’s a trap of trying to do good deeds to atone for your sin. We cannot atone for our own sins. Jesus Christ sacrificed his life to atone for our sin. Our sins are washed away! We just have to believe in His sacrifice for our sin. His blood for our sin.
Or a thought saying, “Oh you cannot escape from your addiction.” Rebuke that thought! God can rescue you from anything. He has parted Red Sea for Israelites, transformed Saul the persecutor into Paul the evangelist. Surely His hand is not too short for anything. If you have faith, then ask Him to rescue you from a miry pit. Just believe even though your deliverance might not come right away. Believe. Just Believe!
While we cannot do anything good on our own, we can lean on God to give us the strength and ability to be good. Let us follow Jesus! Allow Jesus to transform your heart. He can fix what is broken within ourselves.